bawalah ia jauh jauh

assalamualaikum.
malam ni aku betul betul takde mood, =__= . really. oke. i dun know why, but its really hurt me, damn! :') . ouchh,,,its really hurt, why? kenapa aku yang selalu sedih? aku tak layakkah nak terima someone dalam hidup aku? aku tak layakkah nak terima kasih sayang dari orang lain? please.. tell me if im right! T___T . dah banyak kali aku rasa sakit, dalam hati ni. memang aku dah tak boleh nak ekspresi macam mana dah. menanggis? nak korek mana lagi mata air ni? haha. kadang kadang aku rasa its better if someone can crush me hardly and make me forget who i am . simple meaning is, lost memory. Ya Allah, aku dah tak sanggup lagi nak terima dugaan macam ni, aku dah tak sanggup lagi nak lukakan hati aku sendiri. i dun know how to tell u that im really hurt. i think its like cannot be save anymore. :')

                                      
this should be me. rite? whatever it is, i should smile whenrever i had my problems or my hurt . i cant stand it. ohh God, why u give me this hard time. why u gie me this heart? why u give me this love. i didnt need it. sobss3...-___-;; . since i stay at hostel, i always find a reason to smile. yeahh! definitely. humm..maybe its just for my friends or maybe just for my family. who knows . its only between me and Him. :") . im sorry .
my smile doesnt have meaning all the time. maybe people who see me think that im really happy with my life.

                                              
please.. i dun want it anymore. kau ambiklah hati aku dengan kau. kalau kau tak mau pun, kau buang lah jauh jauh. aku dah tak sanggup nak simpan hati ni sebab hati aku dah banyak kali terluka. kesan parut kat hati aku ni tak pernah hilang. dalam hati aku ni jugaklah ada banyak kenangan dengan kau. aku akan sentiasa berdoa agar kau bahagia dengan dia. dan aku harap, kau takkan ulang kesilapan yang sama yang pernah kau lakukan dekat aku dulu. its only between us.
                                                  
memang, hati aku hanya boleh dirawat oleh orang yang telah sakitkannya. tapi aku tau orang tu dah ada hati lain yang perlu dijaga. i understand. :") . happy wif her is your rite.

                                                     

i hope so . :')

crying,

missmyd